Another round

2012 has been busy so far. Everyone's lives seem really busy these days. Why is it that we bite off more than we can chew? I have a tendency to do this. I think this time I've learned my lesson for good. I'm not super woman and I need to stop trying to be. All it does is make me stressed and unhappy.
As I think I mentioned in a previous post, we have started doing more infertility treatments. The medications for this take so much out of me. They make me really sick. I also have my every day planned out into hours of what I need to do and when. This new doctor got me ovulating within a month, which was a first. He's been great. We did our first insemination the beginning of January. It was an overwhelming experience, especially for Jared. Up to this point, he hasn't had to participate in the poking and violating. All he had to do was sit by my side. Now he has to participate. For those of you who don't know what an IUI is, I will explain it as it was explained to us. First they need to get the girl ovulating. This is done by putting them on cocktails of meds until they find the one works. Once they get the girl ovulating (which you know by taking your temperature every morning before you move as well as peeing on an ovulation stick twice a day) you schedule an appointment at the clinic the following morning. This can be tricky because you never know what day it will be and it's last minute. The actual procedure takes a few hours. They first take a sample from the boy. It's funny listening to Jared tell about it, he's great at keeping a good sense of humor about everything. Then they take his sample to the lab, do something to help his guys swim better, and give it back to us. We are then taken back into a room where a nurse puts a catheter through my cervix and into my uterus. She then more or less turkey basters it into me. I lay there for 15 minutes and then we are allowed to leave and go about our day. It's not painful, just invasive. It takes about 3 hours. We did our second one today. We now just wait again until I start another cycle or get a positive test back. Within 6 tries it has a pretty good success rate. If it doesn't work in 6 then we will look into IVF. Hopefully it works this time, or in the next few times. I'll be honest, I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much. It's been a long 4 years and at some point I have to turn off my emotions. But I can't help but get nervous and excited. It consumes my life. I think if things don't work by the end of the year, I'm going to take a break for at least a year. Move on with my life. I had a friend who has gone through the same struggles say something to me a few years ago. She said at least she has her best friend and love of her life by her side. If nothing else, she has this. It really made me sit back and think that worse case scenario it's just Jared and I. We will just have fun. I have a fantastic hubby who I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with, with or without kids.
Anyway, that's an update on us. Sorry, no pictures. There really isn't anything to take pictures of.